telling the world

there's been a lot going on lately, so i'll stick to song lyrics muna, hehehe... this song makes me happy lately, so i decided to post... =)

Telling The World
by: Taio Cruz

Every part in my heart I'm giving out
Every song on my lips I'm singing out
Any fear in my soul I'm letting go
And anyone who asks I'll let them know

She's the one, she's the one
I say it loud
She's the one, she's the one
I say it proud

Ring a bell, Ring a bell
For the whole crowd
Ring a bell, Ring a bell

I'm telling the world
That I've found a girl
The one I can live for
The one who deserves

To give all my light
A reason to fly
The one I can live for
A reason for life

(Repeat)

fix you

Fix You
by: Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

if i fell

one of my favorite songs of all time...

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If I Fell
by:The Beatles

If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
'cause I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you
I must be sure
From the very start
That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you, oh please
Don't run and hide
If I love you too, oh please
Don't hurt my pride like her
'cause I couldn't stand the pain
And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I
Would love to love you
And that she will cry
When she learns we are two
cause I couldn't stand the pain
and I would be sad if our new love was in vain

so I hope you see that I
would love to love you
and that she will cry when she learns we are two.

If I fell in love with you

on life and TV/movies...

your life is like your personal movie or TV show --- you are the main actor/actress and you may have a romantic interest, a lovable sidekick, a supportive best friend or family member, a reliable inner circle or maybe even a resident villain or two. you also have people who are one-time or recurring guest stars (some wanted, some not-so-wanted), and a lot of extras along the way.

for most of my life, i was wrapped up in scoping out the perfect leading man, establishing the "right" inner circle, laughing with the sidekicks, and trying to be a worthy bida of my personal movie.

it took me a while to realize that i am also a one-time/recurring guest star, a potential leading lady, and of course, an extra in countless other "movies".

now, i don't just want to be the perfect "protagonist" of my personal movie. i want to be a memorable and worthy potential leading lady, recurring/one-time guest, and inner circle member in someone else's chick flick/soap opera/documentary/insert-your-preferred-genre-here. who knows, i might start out as an "extra" or occasional guest in someone else's movie and we eventually become a permanent fixture in each other's lives... =)

here's to hoping our personal movies/TV shows will have the happy endings that we wish for! =)

2011!

i've been an absentee blogger lately. i wish i can just say that i was too busy having a life to update, but it was more a mix of living it up and being too tired and lazy during my downtime.

that said, i will try to update more often. at least four times a year, song lyrics not included =P

looking back on 2010, i guess what i've learned is that in life, you really do win some and lose some. just try to win the ones that matter and gain some perspective from the ones that don't.

it was a pretty good year though. it went by too fast, but i guess that's what happens when you're "living in the moment" most of the time ;)

i'm feeling extra hopeful for 2011. i hope it's gonna be a great year. happy new year!!! =)

isip-isip

sometimes, life is like a computer game... just when you think you've mastered something, you find out that a new challenge awaits you.

on one hand, it means you are probably equipped enough for the "level up". on the other hand, it can also mean you have to start from scratch all over again. all you can do is hope that you can apply what you have previously learned to some aspects of this new challenge...

as the pinoy catchphrase goes, go lang ng go!

of fairy tales and happy endings...

i think i've gotten to the point where i truly realize that in life, nothing is cut-and-dried... that said, i still like listening to taylor swift, because it brings me back to the more innocent days when being noticed by your boy-of-the-moment was a big deal and i still believed in (idealistic) happy endings... =)

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Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark gray t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down when ever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

2009

it's almost time to say goodbye to 2009! since i promised myself i will spend most of tomorrow cleaning up (my room, car, laptop files, etc.) to semi-superstitiously make sure my 2010 will not be "messy", i'm gonna post my last blog entry for this year.

2009 was mostly my "just do it" year. i told myself that when it comes to things i want to try/do, if it's worth it, i should rein in my over-analyzing tendencies and just go ahead and pursue it. it has worked out for me quite well, so hopefully, i will be able to keep this up even when 2009 has come and gone. i sort of have a resolution for 2010, but i'll keep that to myself for now, since i haven't finalized it yet, hehehe!

so, to pick up where i left off (which was september), i flew to the east coast during the labor day weekend to see a couple of college friends. new york was my first stop, boston was next.

new york was AWESOME! i would love to go back there and see more places that i wasn't able to see due to the time constraints. it was great seeing the landmarks, watching a broadway musical and witnessing the US Open (too bad i missed federer and nadal, hehehe)!!! i hope i get to visit again next year =)



i was looking forward to seeing boston too, so i can catch up with my thesis partner and check out the top-notch universities it is known for. i really liked the architecture of the city buildings and the slower pace was a welcome change (especially after NY, where the itinerary was very hectic). big thanks to DD for showing me around and patiently taking lots of pictures with me =)



two months later, i went to chicago over the thanksgiving weekend to see some college friends again. i was surprised how clean the downtown area was, especially for an urban city! the deep-dish pizza (among others) was YUMMY. the people were nice (and very well-dressed). our "host family" was very warm and welcoming. it's definitely a city worth checking out! =)



this month, i opted to stay in the bay area during the christmas holidays, mainly to save more vacation days next year and some moolah, of course. it feels so nice to look back on this year and realize that i've explored new places and seen familiar faces along the way. i hope there will be more of that next year as well. a few unpleasant things also happened, but i learned from those experiences, so i hope i will be better equipped for similar situations in the future too.

so... here's to what will hopefully be a pleasantly memorable 2010! i hope there will be more to learn, more to be thankful for and more to be happy about. cheers! =)

"enlightenment"

it just hit me tonight that 2009 will probably go down as one of those years that i've kind of grown up. i won't go into too much detail, but this has been the year where my outlook has evolved in a lot of things.

i've become less "bitter" and more accepting about (and not merely resigned to) some things that i could not change.

i've learned to distinguish when to keep working on something ["it's worth it"] and when to let it take its course and not force the issue ["it's not worth it"] (less eager to please! less "drama"!).

i've learned to recognize slight changes in my mood and attribute that change to the right trigger/catalyst.

i've gotten less defensive on sensitive subjects [mostly because i have identified what my sensitive subjects are], which helped in handling touchy situations more effectively.

i've learned to embrace change more gracefully, rather than resist it, delay it or be in denial about it.

even my BS radar has improved by leaps and bounds, just because i don't let myself get in the way of how i perceive things around me anymore, or at least not as much as i used to.

in general, i feel like i'm more "at peace" and that i have acquired a little more of that "happy balance" that i aim/wish for.

i still over-analyze and over-think petty (and not-so-petty) stuff and there are still some things that are lacking in so many ways, but it's nice to know that i learned a thing or two over the past few years.

let's see na lang how it goes after i have a few more years in me =)

september

it was a pretty weird month.

i was anxious most of the time and it took its toll on my sleeping, eating and working habits. i just felt "off" the whole time, but i did my best to keep things on an even keel thinking that things will eventually go back to normal if i acted that way.

it's september now and in a way, i'm glad another month is here. i hope this will be a good month... and the months after that, of course.

looking forward to my East Coast trip! i think this trip will give me that much-needed break. i'm looking forward to see some friends too. hopefully, i will feel renewed and get my mojo back after this trip =)

[happy birthday to my ate and good luck to HIM in the US Open!]